The Sudden Realization.

Well, here it goes. The blog's very first post.

I'm really sad today. and yesterday. Well, sort of. I started a very blissful November 16 but ended with a depressing day. Why? It's all because of the sudden realization..

I don't know if I'm being over-acting but I feel like the person I like, likes my friend. I suddenly remembered, as I saw his name, that day when my friend rode at his back. You know, like how the Koreans do in their telenovelas. It's devastating to think about it; but then, I suddenly remembered it out of no where.

The other disturbing thing about that is how close they are. They belong to the same circle of friends. I don't really care if my friend will like him or not because it seems like she doesn't give a damn about him (though I hope she wouldn't) but what I care about is how he thinks about her. It's painful. I already sacrificed for two friends. The first time was when I did not disagree with my friend when she realized her love for my 2nd crush. Get it? I mean, they liked each other while I kept quiet and understanding. I did not want to be the hindrance to my friend's happiness. The second time was that I kept quiet once again when I felt like my friend was sort of liking my first love. Love. Yes, my dear friends, I've learned to sacrifice for my friends' betterment.

I am absolutely unsure right now. I guess I felt that he will like me in the end too. But I guess I was wrong. I will never be like my friend. I will never be like his ex-girlfriend. Everyone will always be better than yours truly. Every girl in his life will always be more important to him than me. I'll always be that girl he'll talk to only when he's bored or when he feels like talking about PBA. I'll never be like anyone. I'm different. In a bad way.